1 post tagged “pain”

A few hours ago i wrote that i was having a bad feeling, like something wrong was going to happen, well guess what?, i was fucking right..

An hour after i wrote my last update i got a call from my mom telling me my dad arrived fine and was already at the hotel but that he was still sick, he puked while he was driving ther and had a hard stomach ache, i knew this was just the beggining. She told me he didn't want to go to the doctor and will wait till morning to see how he is feeling.

Then she told me about my sister and that's when the real trouble begins.

My mom read an email my sister sent to my dad where she is telling him bullshit about her, like that she was spending all the money in useless stuff and that she didnt do anything in the house, how she was inviting all her family for christmas and she had to sleep in the floor because of that and some other bullshit that is not worth posting here. I was angry and shocked, mostly because my mom started crying when she was telling me this over the phone.

Her voice broked along with my heart, she sounded dissapointed, angry, betrayed, broken and lonely, it was so hard hearing her crying over the damn cellphone and not being there to comfort her. I was in shocked, specially when she told me sobbing, 'i've never thought my own daughter would hurt me this way'

I was crying while i was trying to help her and after i hung up i just couldn't concentrate at work, i just wanted to leave as fast as i could so i can be with my mom, imagine the shocked i had, i've never heard my mom cried that way, not even when my grandma died. I called my boss and asked her if i can leave earlier, i'm pretty sure i sounded like shit by the phone and she was like, 'well mmmh, ok go,' i dont care if she punish me or if gets in trouble because of this, i needed to be with my mom, here, for her. I also worried my fave supervisor at work, he went to my place to see if he could do something to help me.

Damn, i knew my sister was an asshole but to tell all this shit to my dad just to get her in trouble, that's unforgivable! i can't imagine she can be that kind of person, doing this to your own mother, telling bullshit and lies to your own dad just for him to hate her? she deserves the worst punishment ever and you don't know how much it hurst me to write this.

I'm pissed off at my sister and i'm worried for my dad, i couldnt reached him on his cellphone, i don't know if he's feeling fine now or if he's still suffering, i hate feeling like this, i hate feeling so useless for them.

I'll not be able to sleep fine tonight, i truly don't want to, i still need to speak with my sister about all this shit she is doing, she locked herself in her room, tomorrow she will know me. She can't treat people like this, specially when it's your own family.

I will not forgive her for making my mom cried.